you know that feeling you have when you take a benadryl or a tylenol pm?
that’s my life 60-70% of the time.
i struggle to stay awake or have any energy except for short 1-2 hour bursts where i feel “normal”. i don’t know what’s wrong with me. actually, i know a lot about what’s wrong with me: high cholesterol, apparently high blood pressure (i don’t think so, but the doctor says so), depression, anxiety, tight i.t. bands, sketchy back, rounded out with (light) smoking and probably too much (a drink a day) alcohol.
i’m so frustrated by my body and all of these issues. i have all of the desire in the world to exercise, to do things around the house, to finish projects that i’ve started, but i keep getting sucked in to the tractor beam of the couch. it’s so damned frustrating and really quite humiliating. luckily, bwe understands and has been more than cool about whatever it is i’m dealing with. the problem is, we don’t know what we’re dealing with. more or deeper depression? some sort of parasite or virus? fibromyalgia? mono?
why the hell am i so tired?
